but I am happy with it right now. Things flip, it's strange...but I dont know, sometimes I wonder if everything happens the way it does for a reason, I mean I thought I wanted to die, I hated myself and thought I could never forsee the possibility of being happy ever, but then I realized I am trying way too hard to find something that will come to me when it is ready to. In conclusion I want to thank my friends for being here for me even when I am a spazmatron. Thanks you guys. Garden Street posse yeah!